19 years-old Veegent is India’s first transmale professional model. In Vee’s words, he was not born a girl, he was assigned the female gender at birth.
Veegent has modelled for the Gaurav Gupta Couture show 2021 and has also been part of the GQ cover 2020.
This is his journey of finding himself, accepting his gender identity, overcoming gender stereotypes and loving himself.
Born in Lucknow, Uttar Pradesh, Vee spent 15 years of his life in Himachal Pradesh until finally, his family moved to Delhi two years ago after his father passed away.
Being attracted to girls, Vee identified as a lesbian. It’s during his time in Delhi, he learned about transgenders. He met people from the community, read and learned more about himself and finally understood that he found comfort in being ‘he’ and when the world labelling him as ‘she’ ‘felt out of sync’.
Young girls are instantly labelled as a ‘tomboy’ if they keep short hair, play cricket or go for ‘boyish’ choices in clothing and the same happened with Veegent.
He talks about wanting to be his brother, not just dress like him, he wanted to be him, be a 'man'.
Body dysphoria set in and he struggled with being called a 'girl'. All it took was for his teachers in school, friends, or anyone addressing him as ‘her’ to trigger him. To hide his feminine body, Vee would wear baggy clothes.
Vee’s dysphoria with his breast is severe and wearing a binder helps him. He wears the binder at all times because the thought of others looking at his breast makes him anxious and triggers his dysphoria.
The legal process of hormone therapy requires therapy sessions with a psychiatrist who evaluates your ‘condition’. The sessions are important as it's legally required to get a go ahead from a psychiatrist to transition.
An endocrinologist suggests the amount of testosterone one can start injecting and the frequency of it.
Veegent started taking T-shots on 26 September, 2020 and the first noticeable change was his voice.
The physical changes that come with hormone therapy helped with body dysphoria. As Vee says, the feeling is ‘euphoric’ when people around you notice these changes and more and more people start addressing you as a man.
Apart from hormone therapy, Vee is also looking to get top surgery (subcutaneous mastectomy) done soon. As he says, he wants to ‘walk with his chest out’.
Veegent had his first girlfriend in 9th standard. At the time he identified as a lesbian. Since then dating has been confusing. Vee's last girlfriend was a lesbian, but the relationship didn’t sustain because he is a man.
For someone with body dysphoria, being intimate requires trust and comfort. Their partner needs to understand how their body works.
Lack of awareness, limited conversations, regressive laws and the way Indian society perceives queer folk has made transgender lives very challenging. Acceptance is something that most queers in India fight for.
Here is a list of things Veegent has faced being a transman.
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Published: 01 Jun 2021,09:50 AM IST